My grief is like a wave

My grief is like a wave,
It laps at my feet,
Reminding me it is there,

Some days the tide is high
and as I stand on the edge of the water,
It consumes me,
Drowns me in my tears,
Taking me under,
Until my lungs explode,
And I can't come up for air

There are days,
Where I run my hands through the small waves
It laps at my hands and plays with me

There are days I go under the water,
I see the waves pull in the seaweed,
The creatures
Much like the memories
So I close my eyes
And hold my breath
And as the waves bring in the tide
I surround myself of memories of you
And for a split second I'm not alone

My grief is like a wave
Sometimes it's big,
Towering over me like a tsunami
Threatening me
Those days I'm scared of it

Sometimes it's small
It runs gently over my feet
Reminding me it's there

Sometimes I wade into them
As the slosh all around me
Bringing trinkets of memories
And a love that surrounds me

My grief comes in waves
Some days I can breathe
Some days it surrounds me
And pulls me out to sea

Either way I mourn the day I lost you
And I know you felt the wave,
Everyday too,
Either way I wish I could say,
One last time,
I love you

But for now I'll ride the wave,
Because I'll always remember you

-Artemis Stone